"You have violated our trust."

But she could hear a distant sound, and her gaze turned inward, as if transported to its source.

"Aniday, you cant," Speck said. "They think you are gone these past ten years. You may look like youre eight, but you are almost eighteen. We are stuck in time."

"You dont," Luchóg said. "You have to wait until the rest of us have gone. Theres a natural order to our world that mustnt be disturbed. One child for one changeling. When your time comes, you will find another child from a different family than what you left behind. You cannot go back whence you came."

Smaolach looked perplexed during his friends story, scratching his head as if trying to recall an important detail. "Ah, theres a bit of magic, of course. We bind up the child in a web and lead him to the water."

"Then," Luchóg told her, "you would have to make the change."

Spinning on her heels, Chavisory shouted, "And theres the incantation. You mustnt forget that."

I spat out a mouthful of dirt and blood. "A family doesnt beat up one of its own, even if they have a good reason."

"We were following rules," said Speck.

"True," Speck agreed. "But you can be lonely with a dozen friends beside you."

"Do you understand we cannot be discovered?"

"I dont want to stay here. I want to go back to my real family."

Looking far ahead on the path, I spied her returning to camp, which set my mind at ease. She appeared between the trees, moving like a deer along the ridgeline. The incident at the library had left me eager to apologize, so I took a shortcut through the forest that would allow me to cut her off along her route. My mind buzzed with the story of the man in the yard. I hoped to tell her before the important parts vanished in the confusion. Speck would be mad, rightfully so, but her compassion would mollify any anger. As I drew near, she must have spotted me, for she took off in a sprint. Had I not hesitated before giving chase, perhaps I would have caught her, but the rough terrain defeated speed. In my haste, I snagged my toe on a fallen branch and landed facedown in the dirt. Spitting leaves and twigs, I looked up to see Speck had already made it into camp and was talking with Béka.

Speck was unusually kind to me for the rest of that day, perhaps out of misplaced guilt for my beating. Her gentleness reminded me of my mothers t九九藏書ouch, or what I thought I remembered. My own mother might as well have been the phantom, or any other fiction to be conjured. I was forgetting again, the distinction between memory and imagination blurring. The man I saw, could he be my father? I wondered. He appeared to have recognized me, but I was not his son, only a shadow from the woods. In the dead of night, I wrote down the story of the three ways in McInness notebook, hoping to under-stand it all in the future. Speck kept me company while the others slept. In the starlight, her cares had vanished from her face; even her eyes, usually so tired, radiated compassion.

"Besides, where would you go thats any better than this?" Luchóg asked.

"You put me back," Chavisory complained.

"Two, you could be rid of us," Smaolach said, "by simply leaving. Just up and saunter off and go live apart and alone. We discourage that sort of attitude, mind you, for we need you here to help us find the next child. Tis harder than you think to pretend to be someone else."

"Was he my father, Speck?"

"Accidents happen," Luchóg added. "Long ago, you could find yourself eaten. Wolves and mountain lions prowled these parts. Did you ever hear of the one from up north who wintered out inside a cave and woke up springtime next to a very hungry grizzly? A man can die by any chance imaginable."

Smaolach scowled at her. "Never mind that. We observe the child in teams. While certain people take down his habits, others study his voice."

"But I need to talk to her."

Carefully rolling a cigarette, Luchóg said, "Ive betimes thought that Id look for a large family, with lots of kids and so on, and then pick the one in the middle that nobodyll miss or notice theyre gone for a bit. Or if I forget some detail or am slightly off in my imitation, nobody is the wiser. Maybe number six of thirteen, or four of seven. Not as easy as it once was, now that mums and dads arent having so many babies."

No one looked me in the eye. Chavisory hummed to herself while the others kept silent.

"I think that might have been my real father, Speck. From the other world. Or maybe it was a monster and a dream. But it wanted me to come into the house. I have been there before."

"They could come and capture us, and then we will never be free."

Said Smaolach, "Them fellows usually succumb, dont they, to some twist in the road? You lose 九*九*藏*書your way in a blizzard. A black widow nips your thumb as you sleep. And no one to find the anecdote, the cowslip or the boiled frogs eggs."

We heard the owl descend and strike. The mouse screamed once; then life left it.

Luchóg added, "Youd be a ghost to them."

"Id like to be a baby again," said Chavisory.

"Teach him a lesson."

"Theres your future, little treasure. Behold the changeling," laid Smaolach. "Going back to the past as yourself is not an option. But when you return as a changed person to their world, you get to stay there, grow up as one of them, live as one of them, more or less, grow old as time allows, and youll do that yet, when your turn comes."

"I want to go home."

"It doesnt hurt," I whispered, stiff and sore.

"I cant. My mind is filled with noises."

I could not believe what I was seeing.

I closed my eyes and stayed still. The sun shone down through the branches of the trees, warming my body. My joints ached from the fall, and my fingers swelled and throbbed. One eye was painted black and blue, and blood oozed from cuts and pooled beneath plum bruises. My mouth tasted of vomit and dirt, and I passed out in a rumpled heap.

"Fire is a devil of a way to go," said Luchóg. "Did I ever tell you of the faery changeling caught snooping around the room of a girl she wished to replace? She hears the parents come in, and leaps in the closet, making the change right there in the room. At first, the parents thought nothing of it, when they opened the door and there she was, playing in the dark. Later that day, the real girl comes home, and what do you think? Theres the two of them side by side, and our friend would have made it, but she hadnt yet learned how to speak like the little girl. So the mother says, Now which one of you is Lucy? and the real Lucy says, I am, and the other Lucy lets out a squawk to raise the dead. She had to jump out the second-floor window and start all over again."

"If you go that way, youre more likely to meet with a singular fate," Luchóg said. "Suppose you fell in a ditch and couldnt get up? Then where would you be?"

"Life here has its compensations. Listen."

With a short hiss, Speck grabbed Chavisory by the hair and pulled the poor creature to her. She sat on her chest and threw her hands upon her face, massaging and kneading Chavisorys skin like so much dough. The girl screamed and九-九-藏-書 cried like a fox in a steel trap. When she had finished, Speck revealed a reasonable copy of her own sweet face on the visage of Chavisory. They looked like twins.

"You put me back." Speck imitated her perfectly.

"Once you have made the choice," said Smaolach, "we go in and grab the child. He or shes got to be alone, or youll be found out. Have you ever heard the tale of them ones in Russia or thereabouts, where they caught the lot of them stealing a tiny Cossack lad with pointy teeth, and them Cossacks took all our boys of the woods and burnt them up to a crisp?"

Luchóg knelt beside Speck and spoke for all. "We had to do it, so that you will not ever forget. You spoke to the human, and if he caught you, you would be gone forever."

Chavisory interrupted her. "Id stay away from boys with dogs. Dogs are born suspicious."

"You have to know enough," Speck said, "so you can make people believe you are one of them. A child of their own."

"You will never get old," she said. "You wont have to worry about getting married or having babies or finding a job. No gray hair and wrinkles, no teeth falling out. You wont need a cane or a crutch."

"I took no part," Chavisory said.

"The indifferent children of the earth." She let her sentence linger in the air. I fixed my eye upon a single star, hoping to sense the earth or see the heavens move. This trick of staring and drifting with the sky has cured my insomnia many times over the years, but not that night. Those stars were fixed and this globe creaked as if stuck in its rotation. Eyes lifted, chin pointing to the moon, Speck considered the night, though I had no idea what she was thinking.

Luchóg and Kivi joined the others. Smaolach walked toward the group from my right, his hands clenched and shaking. Onions approached from my left, a menacing toothsome smile on her face. Nine of them encircled me. Igel stepped inside the ring and jabbed a finger at my chest.

"I would go crazy being just by myself all the time," Chavisory added.

"Right," Smaolach said. He sat down on a rotting tree stump and counted off the possibilities on his fingers. "One is that while you do not get old here, nor get deathly ill, you can die by accident. I remember one fellow who went a-walking a wintry day. He made a foolish calculation in his leap from the top of the bridge to the edge of the riverbank, and his jump九-九-藏-書 was not jumpy enough. He fell into the river, went right through the ice, and drowned, frozen to death."

Chavisory drew a circle in the dust with her bare toe. "Remember the German boy who played the piano? The one before Aniday."

"Suppose I want to go back."

"Like children who never grow up," I said.

"Im afraid, Aniday, youre last in the line. Youll have to be patient."

"Start with the name," said Speck. "Gather all the facts: age, birthday brothers and sisters."

Chavisory poked out her head from behind Specks shoulder. "I took no part in it."

"I cannot tell you. Let go of the past, Aniday. Its like holding dandelions to the wind. Wait for the right moment, and the seeds will scatter away." She looked at me. "You should rest."

"What are you talking about?"

Igel did not strike the first blow. From behind, a fist or a club smashed into my kidneys, and I arched my back. With my body thus exposed, Igel punched me squarely in the solar plexus, and I hunched forward. A line of drool spilled from my open mouth. They were all upon me at once like a pack of wild dogs bringing down wounded prey. The blows came from all directions, and initial shock gave way to pain. They scraped my face with their nails, ripped hunks of hair from my scalp, sank their teeth into my shoulder, drawing blood. A ropy arm choked my neck, shutting off the flow of air. I gagged and felt my gorge rise. Amid the fury, their eyes blazed with frenzy, and sheer hatred twisted their features. One by one, they peeled off, sated, and the pressure lessened, but those who remained kicked at my ribs, taunting me to get up, snarling and growling at me to fight back. I could not muster the strength. Before walking away, Béka stomped on my fingers, and Igel delivered a kick with each word of his final admonition: "Do not talk to people again."

"It has to be somebody who isnt happy," Chavisory said.

"Were sorry, too," Smaolach said. "But the law has a ruthless logic."

"She doesnt want to speak with you," the old toad said upon my arrival, and clamped his hand on my shoulder. A few of the elders—Igel, Ragno, Zanzara, and Blomma—had sidled next to him, forming a wall.

"She followed you, Aniday. She saw you with the man. You were to avoid any contact with them, yet there you were, trying to communicate with one of them." Igel pushed me to the ground, 九九藏書kicking up a cloud of rotten leaves. Humiliated, I quickly sprang back to my feet. My fear grew as the others hollered invectives.

Cool water on my cuts and bruises startled me awake, and my first vision was of Speck bent over me, wiping the blood from my face. Directly behind her stood Smaolach and Luchóg, their faces pinched with concern. Drops of my blood left a red patch on Specks white sweater. When I tried to speak, she pressed the wet cloth to my lips.

Nothing stirred. Her presence, my own. "I cant hear a thing."

"Do you know how dangerous that was?"

I sat up slowly and faced my tormentors. "Why did you let them?"

Luchóg and Smaolach took Chavisory behind the honeysuckle and began to manipulate her face. The three of them laughed and carried on through the whole process. "Just make me pretty again," and "Lets get one of them magazines with the womens pictures," and "Hey, she looks like Audrey Hepburn." Eventually, they fixed her face, and she flew from their clutches like a bat.

"In he goes like a baptism," Smaolach continued. "Out he comes, one of us. Never to leave except by one of three ways, and I would not give you my shoes for the first two."

"So he wont forget again."

"Aniday, I am so sorry. I did not want this to happen."

"Punish him."

"I am sorry they hurt you."

"Doesnt matter who he was," said Smaolach. "Father, mother, sister, brother, your Aunt Fannys uncle. None of that matters. Were your family."

Chavisory shouted in my ear, "I didnt even touch you!" She danced spirals around the others.

"Besides, it is a lonesome life," said Chavisory.

Speck looked beyond me, toward the treeline. "Thats the third way. You find the right child on the other side, and you take her place."

"You should not have left me, Aniday. You should have trusted me."

"My turn? I want to go home right now. How do I do it?"

Speck confronted me. "Listen, there are only three possible choices, and going home is not one of them."

She pressed her fingers to my lips. "Listen."

Low in a flyway, an owl swept between the trees, unrolling its wings on the hunt. Speck tensed, the fine hairs on her arms bristling.

"Now youre confusing the boy," said Smaolach. "First, you have to find a child, learn all about him. All of us watch and study him. From a distance, mind."