Stephen began to enumerate glibly his fathers attributes.

-- What then is your point of view? Cranly asked.

-- We want no amateur atheists.

The chalice flowing to the brim.

-- I said that I had lost the faith, Stephen answered, but not that I had lost self-respect. What kind of liberation would that be to forsake an absurdity which is logical and coherent and to embrace one which is illogical and incoherent?

-- Often happy, Stephen said, and often unhappy. I was someone else then.

He broke off, pointed bluntly to the munched pulp of the fig, and said loudly:

Above the flame the smoke of praise

-- The captain has only one love: sir Walter Scott. Isnt that so, captain?

-- Yes. I was born to be a monk.

-- About religion?

-- Good evening, particularly to you.

The radiant image of the eucharist united again in an instant his bitter and despairing thoughts, their cries arising unbroken in a hymn of thanksgiving.

-- And were you happier then? Cranly asked softly, happier than you are now, for instance?

-- I know all the history of your family, too, Temple said, turning to Stephen. Do you know what Giraldus Cambrensis says about your family?

He struck the flags again and tittered while his head trembled with a slight nervous movement. The tall consumptive student and Dixon and OKeeffe were speaking in Irish and did not answer him. Then, turning to Cranly, he said:

He had a quiet toneless voice and urbane manners and on a finger of his plump clean hand he displayed at moments a signet ring.

The squat student did not eat it but, indulging his special humour, said gravely, still tittering and prodding his phrase with his umbrella:

The inhuman clamour soothed his ears in which his mothers sobs and reproaches murmured insistently and the dark frail quivering bodies wheeling and fluttering and swerving round an airy temple of the tenuous sky soothed his eyes which still saw the image of his mothers face.

-- Where did you pick up all that history? OKeeffe asked.

-- What age is your mother?

A trembling joy, lambent as a faint light, played like a fairy host around him. But why? Her passage through the darkening air or the verse with its black vowels and its opening sound, rich and lutelike?

Cranly seized his arm and steered him round so as to lead him back towards Leeson Park. He laughed almost slyly and pressed Stephens arm with an elders affection.

And Rosie OGrady loves me.

-- Do, look it? Stephen asked bluntly.

He glanced sideways at Stephen with a strange smile and said:

-- Um, Cranly answered, holding out what remained of the half chewed fig and jerking it towards the squat students mouth in sign that he should eat.

-- I see, Cranly said.

He came back quickly along the colonnade towards the group of students. Well then, let her go and be damned to her! She could love some clean athlete who washed himself every morning to the waist and had black hair on his chest. Let her.

His step was angry and with an angry abrupt gesture he thrust the stick back into Stephens hand. Stephen felt that his anger had another cause but, feigning patience, touched his arm slightly and said quietly:

A soft liquid joy like the noise of many waters flowed over his memory and he felt in his heart the soft peace of silent spaces of fading tenuous sky above the waters, of oceanic silence, of swallows flying through the sea-dusk over the flowing waters.

Goggins skipped down on to the gravel and at once returned to his place with good humour. Temple turned back to Stephen and asked:

The chalice flowing to the brim.

-- I think, Stephen said, it would pain me as much to do so as to be robbed.

Et tu cum Jesu Galilaeo eras.

-- Tuition! said Cranly rudely. I suppose you mean the barefooted children that are taught by a bloody ape like you. God help them!

Symbol of departure or of loneliness? The verses crooned in the ear of his memory composed slowly before his remembering eyes the scene of the hall on the night of the opening of the national theatre. He was alone at the side of the balcony, looking out of jaded eyes at the culture of Dublin In the stalls and at the tawdry scene-cloths and human dolls framed by the garish lamps of the stage. A burly policeman sweated behind him and seemed at every moment about to act. The catcalls and hisses and mocking cries ran in rude gusts round the hall from his scattered fellow students.

-- Cunning indeed! he said. Is it you? You poor poet, you!

An enchantment of the heart! The night had been enchanted. In a dream or vision he had known the ecstasy of seraphic life. Was it an instant of enchantment only or long hours and years and ages?

-- Im a ballocks, he said, shaking his head in despair. I am and I know I am. And I admit it that I am.

-- Were you baptized yourself, Temple? the consumptive student asked.

-- We hope, Dixon said suavely, that it was not of the kind known to science as a paulo post futurum.

Um, Cranly said as before.

A stout student who stood below them on the steps said:

Are you not weary of ardent ways?

A gradual warmth, a languorous weariness passed over him descending along his spine from his closely cowled head. He felt it descend and, seeing himself as he lay, smiled. Soon he would sleep.

-- No Irish woman ever did it!

-- Would you, Cranly asked, in extreme danger, commit that particular sacrilege? For instance, if you lived in the penal days?

Cranly had taken another dried fig from the supply in his pocket and was eating it slowly and noisily. Temple sat on the pediment of a pillar, leaning back, his cap pulled down on his sleepy eyes. A squat young man came out of the porch, a leather portfolio tucked under his armpit. He marched towards the group, striking the flags with the heels of his boots and with the ferrule of his heavy umbrella. Then, raising the umbrella in salute, he said to all:

And then? The rhythm died away, ceased, began again to move and beat. And then? Smoke, incense ascending from the altar of the world.

She had passed through the dusk. And therefore the air was silent save for one soft hiss that fell. And therefore the tongues about him had ceased their babble. Darkness was falling.

-- With your people? Cranly asked.

Stephen walked on beside his friend, staring gloomily at the footpath.

He laughed nervously as he spoke and, looking up into Stephens face with moved and friendly eyes, said:

Dixon patted him lightly on the shoulder and said mildly:

-- I am not speaking of that, Cranly said in a colder tone. I ask you if you ever felt love towards anyone or anything?

-- Probably I shall go away, he said.

-- Do you disbelieve then?

Eyes, opening from the darkness of desire, eyes that dimmed the breaking east. What was their languid grace but the softness of chambering? And what was their shimmer but the shimmer of the scum that mantled the cesspool of the court of a slobbering Stuart. And he tasted in the language of memory ambered wines, dying fallings of sweet airs, the proud pavan, and saw with the eyes of memory kind gentlewomen in Covent Garden wooing from their balconies with sucking mouths and the pox-fouled wenches of the taverns and young wives that, gaily yielding to their ravishers, clipped and clipped again.

-- Neither my arse nor my elbow! Temple cried out scornfully. And thats what I call limbo.

O, how happy well be

Bend down your faces, Oona and Aleel.

-- If I could, Stephen said, that would cost me very little.

-- Hell, Temple said. I can respect that invention of the grey spouse of Satan. Hell is Roman, like the walls of the Romans, strong and ugly. But what is limbo?

-- Goggins was waiting for you, Glynn. He has gone round to the Adelphi to look for you and Moynihan. What have you there? he asked, tapping the portfolio under Glynns arm.

-- Did an angel speak?

-- It is made behind now, said Stephen hotly.

-I dont care a flaming damn what anyone calls him, Cranly said rudely and flatly. I call him a pig.

He had written verses for her again after ten years. Ten years before she had worn her shawl cowlwise about her head, sending sprays of her warm breath into the night air, tapping her foot upon the glassy road. It was the last tram; the lank brown horses knew it and shook their bells to the clear night in admonition. The conductor talked with the driver, both nodding often in the green light of the lamp. They stood on the steps of the tram, he on the upper, she on the lower. She came up to his step many times between their phrases and went down again and once or twice remained beside him forgetting to go down and then went down. Let be! Let be!

-- I think I am voicing the opinions of all present in saying so much.

He listened to the cries: like the squeak of mice behind the wainscot: a shrill twofold note. But the notes were long and shrill and whirring, unlike the cry of vermin, falling a third or a fourth and trilled as the flying beaks clove the air. Their cry was shrill and clear and fine and falling like threads of silken light unwound from whirring spools.

With languorous look and lavish limb!

He moved a thin shrunken brown hand gently in the air in time to his praise and his thin quick eyelids beat often over his sad eyes.

-- Do you consider that九_九_藏_書 poetry? Or do you know what the words mean?

-- I see, Cranly said.

Cranly was sitting over near the dictionaries. A thick book, opened at the frontispiece, lay before him on the wooden rest. He leaned back in his chair, inclining his ear like that of a confessor to the face of the medical student who was reading to him a problem from the chess page of a journal. Stephen sat down at his right and the priest at the other side of the table closed his copy of The Tablet with an angry snap and stood up.

-- Good evening, gentlemen, said the stubble-grown monkeyish face.

Addressing it as it lay, he said:

Cranly, now grave again, slowed his pace and said:

-- I do not, Stephen said.

-- Where are you fellows off to? What about that game, Cranly?

-- Pothead! Cranly said with calm contempt. What does he know about the way from Sallygap to Larras? Or what does he know about anything for that matter? And the big slobbering washing-pot head of him!

-- I do not wish to overcome them, Stephen answered.

For answer she had danced away from him along the chain of hands, dancing lightly and discreetly, giving herself to none. The white spray nodded to her dancing and when she was in shadow the glow was deeper on her cheek.

Dixon turned aside from his group, saying:

He walked away slowly towards the deeper shadows at the end of the colonnade, beating the stone softly with his stick to hide his revery from the students whom he had left: and allowed his mind to summon back to itself the age of Dowland and Byrd and Nash.

-- We had better go, Dixon, said Stephen in warning. He has gone to complain.

-- With my mother.

-- Your mother must have gone through a good deal of suffering, he said then. Would you not try to save her from suffering more even ifor would you?

He was watching Cranlys firm-featured suffering face, lit up now by a smile of false patience. The gross name had passed over it like foul water poured over an old stone image, patient of injuries; and, as he watched him, he saw him raise his hat in salute and uncover the black hair that stood stiffly from his forehead like an iron crown.

-- Cranly, I had an unpleasant quarrel this evening.

-- Look at him! he said with scorn to the others. Look at Irelands hope!

-- Many persons have doubts, even religious persons, yet they overcome them or put them aside, Cranly said. Are your doubts on that point too strong?

Cranly stopped to listen, saying:

-- Well? Stephen said. Do you remember the rest?

He produced his match and began to clean the crevice between two teeth. Then he said carelessly:

-- I allude to that.

A soft liquid joy flowed through the words where the soft long vowels hurtled noiselessly and fell away, lapping and flowing back and ever shaking the white bells of their waves in mute chime and mute peal, and soft low swooning cry; and he felt that the augury he had sought in the wheeling darting birds and in the pale space of sky above him had come forth from his heart like a bird from a turret, quietly and swiftly.

The full morning light had come. No sound was to be heard; but he knew that all around him life was about to awaken in common noises, hoarse voices, sleepy prayers. Shrinking from that life he turned towards the wall, making a cowl of the blanket and staring at the great overblown scarlet flowers of the tattered wallpaper. He tried to warm his perishing joy in their scarlet glow, imagining a roseway from where he lay upwards to heaven all strewn with scarlet flowers. Weary! Weary! He too was weary of ardent ways.

He also tapped the portfolio and coughed gently and smiled.

-- Cranly, youre always sneering at me. I can see that. But I am as good as you any day. Do you know what I think about you now as compared with myself?

-- Nine or ten, Stephen answered. Some died.

-- A libel on Ireland!

The soft beauty of the Latin word touched with an enchanting touch the dark of the evening, with a touch fainter and more persuading than the touch of music or of a womans hand. The strife of their minds was quelled. The figure of a woman as she appears in the liturgy of the church passed silently through the darkness: a white-robed figure, small and slender as a boy, and with a falling girdle. Her voice, frail and high as a boys, was heard intoning from a distant choir the first words of a woman which pierce the gloom and clamour of the first chanting of the passion:

After a pause Cranly asked:

He smiled as he thought of the gods image for it made him think of a bottle-nosed judge in a wig, putting commas into a document which he held at arms length, and he knew that he would not have remembered the gods name but that it was like an Irish oath. It was folly. But was it for this folly that he was about to leave for ever the house of prayer and prudence into which he had been born and the order of life out of which he had come?

Temple turned right and left, making sudden feeble gestures as he spoke.

Our broken cries and mournful lays

-- Excuse me, Stephen said politely, is that not the ambition of most young gentlemen?

-- We want no budding buddhists.

-- Remember, Cranly said, that he would be glorified.

-- Aloysius Gonzaga, I think, was of the same mind, Stephen said.

Lure of the fallen seraphim?

-- Look here, Cranly, he said. You have asked me what I would do and what I would not do. I will tell you what I will do and what I will not do. I will not serve that in which I no longer believe, whether it call itself my home, my fatherland, or my church: and I will try to express myself in some mode of life or art as freely as I can and as wholly as I can, using for my defence the only arms I allow myself to use - silence, exile, and cunning.

Dixon folded the journal and rose with dignity, saying:

Temple turned on him his dark gipsy eyes.

-- I did, Stephen answered.

-- You are a great stranger now.

-- By hell, Im delighted with that name. A smiler.

She passed out from the porch of the library and bowed across Stephen in reply to Cranlys greeting. He also? Was there not a slight flush on Cranlys cheek? Or had it come forth at Temples words? The light had waned. He could not see.

-- Good? Yes. It is a good evening.

-- I imagine, Stephen said, that there is a malevolent reality behind those things I say I fear.

-- Do you believe in the eucharist? Cranly asked.

Upon the nest under the eave before

I gaze upon them as the swallow gazes

-- Because, Cranly continued, you need not look upon yourself as driven away if you do not wish to go or as a heretic or an outlaw. There are many good believers who think as you do. Would that surprise you? The church is not the stone building nor even the clergy and their dogmas. It is the whole mass of those born into it. I dont know what you wish to do in life. Is it what you told me the night we were standing outside Harcourt Street station?

The veiled windless hour had passed and behind the panes of the naked window the morning light was gathering. A bell beat faintly very far away. A bird twittered; two birds, three. The bell and the bird ceased; and the dull white light spread itself east and west, covering the world, covering the roselight in his heart.

-- Theres real poetry for you, he said. Theres real love.

They had walked on towards the township of Pembroke and now, as they went on slowly along the avenues, the trees and the scattered lights in the villas soothed their minds. The air of wealth and repose diffused about them seemed to comfort their neediness. Behind a hedge of laurel a light glimmered in the window of a kitchen and the voice of a servant was heard singing as she sharpened knives. She sang, in short broken bars:

And all hearts were touched and turned to her voice, shining like a young star, shining clearer as the voice intoned the pro-paroxytone and more faintly as the cadence died.

-- Tell me the truth. Were you at all shocked by what I said?

Stephen, struck by his tone of closure, reopened the discussion at once by saying:

What birds were they? He stood on the steps of the library to look at them, leaning wearily on his ashplant. They flew round and round the jutting shoulder of a house in Molesworth Street. The air of the late March evening made clear their flight, their dark quivering bodies flying clearly against the sky as against a limp-hung cloth of smoky tenuous blue.

-- Then do so, Cranly said. Do as she wishes you to do. What is it for you? You disbelieve in it. It is a form: nothing else. And you will set her mind at rest.

-- Dont argue with him, Dixon, Cranly said brutally. Dont talk to him or look at him. Lead him home with a sugan the way youd lead a bleating goat.

-- And is that why you will not communicate, Cranly asked, because you are not sure of that too, because you feel that the host, too, may be the body and blood of the son of God and not a wafer of bread? And because you fear that it may be?

They walked southward in silence. Then Cranly said:

-- Did the idea ever occur to you, Cranly asked, that Jesus was not what he pretended to be?

As they passed through a lane of the tables Stephen said:

-- And, as you remark, if it is thus, I ask emphatically whence comes this thusness.

-- The firhttps://read.99csw.comst person to whom that idea occurred, Stephen answered, was Jesus himself.

Rosie OGrady.

-- Yes, Stephen said.

-- I cannot answer for the past, Stephen replied. Possibly not.

Cranly gazed after him blandly and vaguely. The medical student went on in a softer voice:

-- Are you quite orthodox on that point, Temple? Dixon said suavely.

-- Go to sleep again, Temple, said OKeeffe.

-- Somewhat, Stephen said.

-- And you made me confess to you, Stephen said, thrilled by his touch, as I have confessed to you so many other things, have I not?

-- And will you?

He turned towards his friends face and saw there a raw smile which some force of will strove to make finely significant.

-- Do you know that you are an excitable man?

-- He had, faith, Temple said. And he was a married man too. And all the priests used to be dining there. By hell, I think they all had a touch.

-- Yes, Stephen said, smiling in spite of himself at Cranlys way of remembering thoughts in connexion with places. The night you spent half an hour wrangling with Doherty about the shortest way from Sallygap to Larras.

He wander the loud waters.

-- Not old, Stephen said. She wishes me to make my easter duty.

-- Do you fear then, Cranly asked, that the God of the Roman catholics would strike you dead and damn you if you made a sacrilegious communion?

-- Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire! Taking Stephens arms, he went on again and said:

-- Have you never loved anyone? Cranly asked.

No, it was not his image. It was like the image of the young priest in whose company he had seen her last, looking at him out of doves eyes, toying with the pages of her Irish phrase-book.

-- Pawn to kings bloody fourth.

He moved with a shambling gait round the group and spoke to Stephen.

-- Are you in good circumstances at present?

-- Hoosh! Blast you! Cranly cried, clapping his hands.

Away then: it is time to go. A voice spoke softly to Stephens lonely heart, bidding him go and telling him that his friendship was coming to an end. Yes; he would go. He could not strive against another. He knew his part.

They turned to the left and walked on as before. When they had gone on so for some time Stephen said:

He laughed slyly, looking in Stephens face, repeating:

-- I mean, said Stephen, that I was not myself as I am now, as I had to become.

Goes up from ocean rim to rim.

Cranly made a swift step towards Temple, halted, stamping his foot, crying as if to a fowl:

Dixon smiled and turned his ring. The blackish, monkey-puckered face pursed its human mouth with gentle pleasure and its voice purred:

Your eyes have set mans heart ablaze

They laughed at his words and gesture. Temple turned on him bravely, saying:

Stephen shook his head slowly.

-- Go away from here, he said rudely. Go away, you stinkpot. And you are a stinkpot.

-- Shes easy to find, Cranly said.

-- Delightful weather for March. Simply delightful.

No, no; that was folly. Even if he sent her the verses she would not show them to others. No, no; she could not.

-- A bloody ape, Cranly repeated with emphasis, and a blasphemous bloody ape!

-- Put it that way if you like, Dixon said.

He watched their flight; bird after bird: a dark flash, a swerve, a flutter of wings. He tried to count them before all their darting quivering bodies passed: six, ten, eleven: and wondered were they odd or even in number. Twelve, thirteen: for two came wheeling down from the upper sky. They were flying high and low but ever round and round in straight and curving lines and ever flying from left to right, circling about a temple of air.

-- Blasphemy!

Darkness falls from the air.

Goes up from ocean rim to rim

-- The church too. Coming round too. The work is going ahead there too. Dont fret about the church.

Cranly examined the fig by the light of a lamp under which he halted. Then he smelt it with both nostrils, bit a tiny piece, spat it out and threw the fig rudely into the gutter.

Cranly still frowned at the stout student below him. Then, with a snort of disgust, he shoved him violently down the steps.

-- That remark was made before, Cranly said calmly.

-- I can see, he said, that you are about to make obvious remarks.

Bah! he had done well to leave the room in disdain. He had done well not to salute her on the steps of the library! He had done well to leave her to flirt with her priest, to toy with a church which was the scullery-maid of christendom.

-- I will not serve, answered Stephen.

-- I tried to love God, he said at length. It seems now I failed. It is very difficult. I tried to unite my will with the will of God instant by instant. In that I did not always fail. I could perhaps do that still --

Tell no more of enchanted days.

They came back with shrill cries over the jutting shoulder of the house, flying darkly against the fading air. What birds were they? He thought that they must be swallows who had come back from the south. Then he was to go away for they were birds ever going and coming, building ever an unlasting home under the eaves of mens houses and ever leaving the homes they had built to wander.

His hat had come down on his forehead. He shoved it back and in the shadow of the trees Stephen saw his pale face, framed by the dark, and his large dark eyes. Yes. His face was handsome and his body was strong and hard. He had spoken of a mothers love. He felt then the sufferings of women, the weaknesses of their bodies and souls; and would shield them with a strong and resolute arm and bow his mind to them.

-- Do you not fear that those words may be spoken to you on the day of Judgement?

-- But why are they sent to hell if Jesus said they were all to come? Temple said, his eyes searching Glynns eyes.

He frowned angrily upon his thought and on the shrivelled mannikin who had called it forth. His fathers jibes at the Bantry gang leaped out of his memory. He held them at a distance and brooded uneasily on his own thought again. Why were they not Cranlys hands? Had Davins simplicity and innocence stung him more secretly?

Rise in one eucharistic hymn

Tell no more of enchanted days.

-- Whatever else is unsure in this stinking dunghill of a world a mothers love is not. Your mother brings you into the world, carries you first in her body. What do we know about what she feels? But whatever she feels, it, at least, must be real. It must be. What are our ideas or ambitions? Play. Ideas! Why, that bloody bleating goat Temple has ideas. MacCann has ideas too. Every jackass going the roads thinks he has ideas.

Why was he gazing upwards from the steps of the porch, hearing their shrill twofold cry, watching their flight? For an augury of good or evil? A phrase of Cornelius Agrippa flew through his mind and then there flew hither and thither shapeless thoughts from Swedenborg on the correspondence of birds to things of the intellect and of how the creatures of the air have their knowledge and know their times and seasons because they, unlike man, are in the order of their life and have not perverted that order by reason.

While sacrificing hands upraise

For I love sweet Rosie OGrady

-- The Forster family, Temple said, is descended from Baldwin the First, king of Flanders. He was called the Forester. Forester and Forster are the same name. A descendant of Baldwin the First, captain Francis Forster, settled in Ireland and married the daughter of the last chieftain of Clanbrassil. Then there are the Blake Forsters. Thats a different branch.

-- Come back to the mistress, Temple. We want to hear about that.

Your eyes have set mans heart ablaze

Cranly, embarrassed for a moment, took another fig from his pocket and was about to eat it when Stephen said:

It was not thought nor vision though he knew vaguely that her figure was passing homeward through the city. Vaguely first and then more sharply he smelt her body. A conscious unrest seethed in his blood. Yes, it was her body he smelt, a wild and languid smell, the tepid limbs over which his music had flowed desirously and the secret soft linen upon which her flesh distilled odour and a dew.

-- Why not? Cranly said.

-- Where I can, Stephen said.

Are you not weary of ardent ways?

Tell no more of enchanted days.

-- Pawn to kings fourth.

Our broken cries and mournful lays

Tell no more of enchanted days.

Tell no more of enchanted days.

-- Pernobilis et pervetusta familia, Temple said to Stephen. The stout student who stood below them on the steps farted briefly. Dixon turned towards him, saying in a soft voice:

-- Out with it, Temple! the stout student cried from the steps. Get it out in bits!

Did that explain his friends listless silence, his harsh comments, the sudden intrusions of rude speech with which he had shattered so often Stephens ardent wayward confessions? Stephen had forgiven freely for he had found this rudeness also in himself. And he remembered an evening when he had dismounted from a borrowed creaking bicycle to pray to God in a wood near Malahide. He had lifted up his arms and spoken in ecstasy to the sombre nave of the trees, knowing that he stood on holy ground and in a holy hour. And when two constabulary men had come into sight round a bend in the gloomy road he had broｈttps://ｒeａd.９９ｃｓｗ.cｏｍken off his prayer to whistle loudly an air from the last pantomime.

At certain instants her eyes seemed about to trust him but he had waited in vain. She passed now dancing lightly across his memory as she had been that night at the carnival ball, her white dress a little lifted, a white spray nodding in her hair. She danced lightly in the round. She was dancing towards him and, as she came, her eyes were a little averted and a faint glow was on her cheek. At the pause in the chain of hands her hand had lain in his an instant, a soft merchandise.

-- My dear man, said Cranly urbanely, you are incapable, do you know, absolutely incapable of thinking.

-- It is a curious thing, do you know, Cranly said dispassionately, how your mind is supersaturated with the religion in which you say you disbelieve. Did you believe in it when you were at school? I bet you did.

And yet he felt that, however he might revile and mock her image, his anger was also a form of homage. He had left the classroom in disdain that was not wholly sincere, feeling that perhaps the secret of her race lay behind those dark eyes upon which her long lashes flung a quick shadow. He had told himself bitterly as he walked through the streets that she was a figure of the womanhood of her country, a bat-like soul waking to the consciousness of itself in darkness and secrecy and loneliness, tarrying awhile, loveless and sinless, with her mild lover and leaving him to whisper of innocent transgressions in the latticed ear of a priest. His anger against her found vent in coarse railing at her paramour, whose name and voice and features offended his baffled pride: a priested peasant, with a brother a policeman in Dublin and a brother a potboy in Moycullen. To him she would unveil her souls shy nakedness, to one who was but schooled in the discharging of a formal rite rather than to him, a priest of the eternal imagination, transmuting the daily bread of experience into the radiant body of everliving life.

-- Yes, my child, Cranly said, still gaily.

A burst of laughter covered his words. But he turned again to Stephen and said with a sudden eagerness:

-- That word is a most interesting word. Thats the only English dual number. Did you know?

And you have had your will of him.

-- I neither believe in it nor disbelieve in it, Stephen answered.

-- Good evening, sirs.

-- What is offered me on the other hand? Stephen asked. An eternity of bliss in the company of the dean of studies?

-- Very well, then, Temple continued, still addressing Glynn, and if Jesus suffered the children to come why does the church send them all to hell if they die unbaptized? Why is that?

-- But do you know, Temple went on, what I think of you and of myself compared together?

-- And if you got nothing, would you rob?

-- How someone else? What do you mean by that statement?

-- I had it on my mind to say that, Goggins answered firmly. It did no one any harm, did it?

-- I fear many things: dogs, horses, fire-arms, the sea, thunder-storms, machinery, the country roads at night.

-- Alone, quite alone. You have no fear of that. And you know what that word means? Not only to be separate from all others but to have not even one friend.

As they crossed the hall a man of dwarfish stature came towards them. Under the dome of his tiny hat his unshaven face began to smile with pleasure and he was heard to murmur. The eyes were melancholy as those of a monkey.

He paused for an answer. Cranly dislodged a figseed from his teeth on the point of his rude toothpick and gazed at it intently

-- I will not, Stephen said.

Stephen, preparing the words neatly in his mind, continued:

-- You made me confess the fears that I have. But I will tell you also what I do not fear. I do not fear to be alone or to be spurned for another or to leave whatever I have to leave. And I am not afraid to make a mistake, even a great mistake, a lifelong mistake, and perhaps as long as eternity too.

-- That blithering idiot, Temple! I swear to Moses, do you know, that Ill be the death of that fellow one time.

While sacrificing hands upraise

-- Are you drunk or what are you or what are you trying to say? asked Cranly, facing round on him with an expression of wonder.

-- From Baldhead, king of Flanders, Cranly repeated, rooting again deliberately at his gleaming uncovered teeth.

-- Tell me, for example, would you deflower a virgin?

-- Yes, Stephen said quietly, I feel that and I also fear it.

Lure of the fallen seraphim?

-- Goggins, youre the flamingest dirty devil I ever met, do you know.

-- You wish me to say, Stephen answered, that the rights of property are provisional, and that in certain circumstances it is not unlawful to rob. Everyone would act in that belief. So I will not make you that answer. Apply to the jesuit theologian, Juan Mariana de Talavera, who will also explain to you in what circumstances you may lawfully Kill your King and whether you had better hand him his poison in a goblet or smear it for him upon his robe or his saddlebow. Ask me rather would I suffer others to rob me, or if they did, would I call down upon them what I believe is called the chastisement of the secular arm?

-- And it does you every credit, Temple.

Under the colonnade Temple was standing in the midst of a little group of students. One of them cried:

Cranly did not answer or turn. He laid his book on the counter and passed out, his well-shod feet sounding flatly on the floor. On the staircase he paused and gazing absently at Dixon repeated:

-- The distillery is damn good.

-- I have to go, Stephen answered.

-- Now?

-- Yes, now, Stephen said. We cant speak here. Come away.

-- I will take the risk, said Stephen.

-- Do you like what you seen of me, straight hair and curly eyebrows?

-- Is he descended from Baldwin too? asked a tall consumptive student with dark eyes.

-- And he was another pig then, said Cranly.

-- I am afraid you are a heretic.

He used the phrase broadly and loudly as he often used technical expressions, as if he wished his hearer to understand that they were used by him without conviction.

A louse crawled over the nape of his neck and, putting his thumb and forefinger deftly beneath his loose collar, he caught it. He rolled its body, tender yet brittle as a grain of rice, between thumb and finger for an instant before he let it fall from him and wondered would it live or die. There came to his mind a curious phrase from Cornelius à Lapide which said that the lice born of human sweat were not created by God with the other animals on the sixth day. But the tickling of the skin of his neck made his mind raw and red. The life of his body, ill clad, ill fed, louse-eaten, made him close his eyelids in a sudden spasm of despair and in the darkness he saw the brittle bright bodies of lice falling from the air and turning often as they fell. Yes, and it was not darkness that fell from the air. It was brightness.

While his soul had passed from ecstasy to languor where had she been? Might it be, in the mysterious ways of spiritual life, that her soul at those same moments had been conscious of his homage? It might be.

A glow of desire kindled again his soul and fired and fulfilled all his body. Conscious of his desire she was waking from odorous sleep, the temptress of his villanelle. Her eyes, dark and with a look of languor, were opening to his eyes. Her nakedness yielded to him, radiant, warm, odorous and lavish-limbed, enfolded him like a shining cloud, enfolded him like water with a liquid life; and like a cloud of vapour or like waters circumfluent in space the liquid letters of speech, symbols of the element of mystery, flowed forth over his brain.

-- I suffer little children to come unto me, Glynn said amiably.

-- I would beg first, Stephen said.

-- Baldhead, Cranly repeated, sucking at a crevice in his teeth.

-- Do you believe in the law of heredity?

but his voice was no longer angry and Stephen wondered was he thinking of her greeting to him under the porch.

Sadder to Stephens ear was his speech: a genteel accent, low and moist, marred by errors, and, listening to it, he wondered was the story true and was the thin blood that flowed in his shrunken frame noble and come of an incestuous love?

-- All your intellectual soul is in that phrase, OKeeffe, said Temple with open scorn.

Stephen raised his hat in acknowledgement.

-- How do I know? Stephen said.

-- Didnt I tell you he was a smiler? said Temple, turning right and left. Didnt I give him that name?

He struck the ferrule of his umbrella on the stone floor of the colonnade.

He began to beat the frayed end of his ashplant against the base of a pillar. Had Cranly not heard him? Yet he could wait. The talk about him ceased for a moment and a soft hiss fell again from a window above. But no other sound was in the air and the swallows whose flight he had followed with idle eyes were sleeping.

-- Jesus, too, seems to have treated his mother with scant courtesy in public but Suarez, a jesuit theologian and Spanish gentleman, has apologized for him.

Cranly cut him short by asking:

-- The most profound sentence ever written, Temple said with enthusiasm, is the sentence at the end https://read.99csw.comof the zoology. Reproduction is the beginning of death.

-- The church calls him a saint, Stephen objected.

-- A medical student, an oarsman, a tenor, an amateur actor, a shouting politician, a small landlord, a small investor, a drinker, a good fellow, a story-teller, somebodys secretary, something in a distillery, a tax-gatherer, a bankrupt and at present a praiser of his own past.

Cranly came out through the door of the entrance hall, his hat thrust back on the nape of his neck and picking his teeth with care.

-- Has your mother had a happy life?

-- Go easy, my dear man. Youre an excitable bloody man, do you know.

-- I am not at all sure of it, Stephen said. He is more like a son of God than a son of Mary.

Cranly asked suddenly in a plain sensible tone:

-- But he, Temple said, pointing to Cranly, he is a ballocks, too, like me. Only he doesnt know it. And thats the only difference I see.

His words seemed to have struck some deep chord in his own nature. Had he spoken of himself, of himself as he was or wished to be? Stephen watched his face for some moments in silence. A cold sadness was there. He had spoken of himself, of his own loneliness which he feared.

-- And would you?

And you have had your will of him.

Cranly pressed Stephens arm, saying:

The squat student looked at him seriously and shook his umbrella gently and reprovingly.

Their minds, lately estranged, seemed suddenly to have been drawn closer, one to the other.

What you said, is it? Cranly asked. Yes, I remember it. To discover the mode of life or of art whereby your spirit could express itself in unfettered freedom.

-- Do you intend that?

And still you hold our longing gaze

The singing ceased. They went on together, Cranly repeating in strongly stressed rhythm the end of the refrain:

Rude brutal anger routed the last lingering instant of ecstasy from his soul. It broke up violently her fair image and flung the fragments on all sides. On all sides distorted reflections of her image started from his memory: the flower girl in the ragged dress with damp coarse hair and a hoydens face who had called herself his own girl and begged his handsel, the kitchen-girl in the next house who sang over the clatter of her plates, with the drawl of a country singer, the first bars of By Killarneys Lakes and Fells, a girl who had laughed gaily to see him stumble when the iron grating in0the footpath near Cork Hill had caught the broken sole of his shoe, a girl he had glanced at, attracted by her small ripe mouth, as she passed out of Jacobs biscuit factory, who had cried to him over her shoulder:

-- And the church, Father Moran?

Fearing to lose all, he raised himself suddenly on his elbow to look for paper and pencil. There was neither on the table; only the soup plate he had eaten the rice from for supper and the candlestick with its tendrils of tallow and its paper socket, singed by the last flame. He stretched his arm wearily towards the foot of the bed, groping with his hand in the pockets of the coat that hung there. His fingers found a pencil and then a cigarette packet. He lay back and, tearing open the packet, placed the last cigarette on the window ledge and began to write out the stanzas of the villanelle in small neat letters on the rough cardboard surface.

-- There are two nice young ladies upstairs, captain, tired of waiting, Dixon said.

-- Ay, Stephen said somewhat bitterly, bright, agile, impassible and, above all, subtle.

Stephen, who had been listening to the unspoken speech behind the words, said with assumed carelessness:

And heres the wiseacre, said Temple. Do you know that about the Forsters?

Are you not weary of ardent ways?

-- Because the church is cruel like all old sinners, Temple said.

A monk! His own image started forth a profaner of the cloister, a heretic franciscan, willing and willing not to serve, spinning like Gherardino da Borgo San Donnino, a lithe web of sophistry and whispering in her ear.

-- Limbo! Temple cried. Thats a fine invention too. Like hell.

The verses passed from his mind to his lips and, murmuring them over, he felt the rhythmic movement of a villanelle pass through them. The rose-like glow sent forth its rays of rhyme; ways, days, blaze, praise, raise. Its rays burned up the world, consumed the hearts of men and angels: the rays from the rose that was her wilful heart.

-- Yes, yes, the ladies are coming round to us. I can see it every day. The ladies are with us. The best helpers the language has.

-- Is it? Stephen said vaguely.

Are you not weary of ardent ways,

-- Mulier cantat.

-- I bow to you, Dixon said, but I had the impression that limbo existed for such cases.

-- What are you reading now, captain? Dixon asked. The Bride of Lammermoor? -- I love old Scott, the flexible lips said, I think he writes something lovely. There is no writer can touch sir Walter Scott.

How could he hit their conscience or how cast his shadow over the imaginations of their daughters, before their squires begat upon them, that they might breed a race less ignoble than their own? And under the deepened dusk he felt the thoughts and desires of the race to which he belonged flitting like bats across the dark country lanes, under trees by the edges of streams and near the pool-mottled bogs. A woman had waited in the doorway as Davin had passed by at night and, offering him a cup of milk, had all but wooed him to her bed; for Davin had the mild eyes of one who could be secret. But him no womans eyes had wooed.

-- But with the unpleasantness left out, Dixon said. He turned smiling to the others and said:

-- We shall call it riding a hack to spare the hunter, said Dixon.

Ten years from that wisdom of children to his folly. If he sent her the verses? They would be read out at breakfast amid the tapping of egg-shells. Folly indeed! Her brothers would laugh and try to wrest the page from each other with their strong hard fingers. The suave priest, her uncle, seated in his arm-chair, would hold the page at arms length, read it smiling and approve of the literary form.

Smoke went up from the whole earth, from the vapoury oceans, smoke of her praise. The earth was like a swinging swaying censer, a ball of incense, an ellipsoidal fall. The rhythm died out at once; the cry of his heart was broken. His lips began to murmur the first verses over and over; then went on stumbling through half verses, stammering and baffled; then stopped. The hearts cry was broken.

His last phrase, sour smelling as the smoke of charcoal and disheartening, excited Stephens brain, over which its fumes seemed to brood.

-- Pascal, if I remember rightly, would not suffer his mother to kiss him as he feared the contact of her sex.

-- Pascal was a pig, said Cranly.

-- Put him back into the perambulator, Cranly, OKeeffe called out.

The images he had summoned gave him no pleasure. They were secret and inflaming but her image was not entangled by them. That was not the way to think of her. It was not even the way in which he thought of her. Could his mind then not trust itself? Old phrases, sweet only with a disinterred sweetness like the figseeds Cranly rooted out of his gleaming teeth.

Brightness falls from the air.

He spoke the verses aloud from the first lines till the music and rhythm suffused his mind, turning it to quiet indulgence; then copied them painfully to feel them the better by seeing them; then lay back on his bolster.

-- Cranly, I want to speak to you.

-- Let us eke go.

-- Then, said Cranly, you do not intend to become a protestant?

The instant of inspiration seemed now to be reflected from all sides at once from a multitude of cloudy circumstances of what had happened or of what might have happened. The instant flashed forth like a point of light and now from cloud on cloud of vague circumstance confused form was veiling softly its afterglow. O! In the virgin womb of the imagination the word was made flesh. Gabriel the seraph had come to the virgins chamber. An afterglow deepened within his spirit, whence the white flame had passed, deepening to a rose and ardent light. That rose and ardent light was her strange wilful heart, strange that no man had known or would know, wilful from before the beginning of the world; and lured by that ardent rose-like glow the choirs of the seraphim were falling from heaven.

Cranly laughed, tightening his grip on Stephens arm, and said:

-- Yes, Stephen answered.

The park trees were heavy with rain; and rain fell still and ever in the lake, lying grey like a shield. A game of swans flew there and the water and the shore beneath were fouled with their green-white slime. They embraced softly, - impelled by the grey rainy light, the wet silent trees, the shield-like witnessing lake, the swans. They embraced without joy or passion, his arm about his sisters neck. A grey woollen cloak was wrapped athwart her from her shoulder to her waist and her fair head was bent in willing shame. He had loose red-brown hair and tender shapely strong freckled hands. Face? There was no face seen. The brothers face was bent upon her fair rain-fragrant hair. The hand freckled and strong and shapely and caressing was Davins hand.

-- Dixon, come over tillhttps://read.99csw.com you hear. Temple is in grand form.

-- Do you feel how profound that is because you are a poet?

-- Do you know what limbo is? he cried. Do you know what we call a notion like that in Roscommon?

-- And why were you shocked, Cranly pressed on in the same tone, if you feel sure that our religion is false and that Jesus was not the son of God?

Rise in one eucharistic hymn.

And when we are married,

-- You did. Were not deaf, said the tall consumptive.

-- Not as you are now, not as you had to become, Cranly repeated. Let me ask you a question. Do you love your mother?

-- Dont, please. You cannot discuss this question with your mouth full of chewed fig.

-- What was he? Cranly asked after a pause.

-- But why do you fear a bit of bread?

-- I mean, Cranly said, hardening in his speech, did the idea ever occur to you that he was himself a conscious hypocrite, what he called the jews of his time, a whited sepulchre? Or, to put it more plainly, that he was a blackguard?

-- Saint Augustine says that about unbaptized children going to hell, Temple answered, because he was a cruel old sinner too.

-- Hoosh!

He began to feel that he had wronged her. A sense of her innocence moved him almost to pity her, an innocence he had never understood till he had come to the knowledge of it through sin, an innocence which she too had not understood while she was innocent or before the strange humiliation of her nature had first come upon her. Then first her soul had begun to live as his soul had when he had first sinned, and a tender compassion filled his heart as he remembered her frail pallor and her eyes, humbled and saddened by the dark shame of womanhood.

Tell no more of enchanted days.

Having written them out he lay back on the lumpy pillow, murmuring them again. The lumps of knotted flock under his head reminded him of the lumps of knotted horsehair in the sofa of her parlour on which he used to sit, smiling or serious, asking himself why he had come, displeased with her and with himself, confounded by the print of the Sacred Heart above the untenanted sideboard. He saw her approach him in a lull of the talk and beg him to sing one of his curious songs. Then he saw himself sitting at the old piano, striking chords softly from its speckled keys and singing, amid the talk which had risen again in the room, to her who leaned beside the mantelpiece a dainty song of the Elizabethans, a sad and sweet loth to depart, the victory chant of Agincourt, the happy air of Greensleeves. While he sang and she listened, or feigned to listen, his heart was at rest but when the quaint old songs had ended and he heard again the voices in the room he remembered his own sarcasm: the house where young men are called by their christian names a little too soon.

-- Do you intend that now, the squat student said, as ipso facto or, let us say, as so to speak?

-- Cranly pointed his long forefinger.

He touched Stephen timidly at the elbow and said eagerly:

He bit off the rest of the fig and flung away the butt.

A sudden swift hiss fell from the windows above him and he knew that the electric lamps had been switched on in the readers room. He turned into the pillared hall, now calmly lit, went up the staircase and passed in through the clicking turnstile.

-- I dont know what your words mean, he said simply.

-- The God of the Roman catholics could do that now, Stephen said. I fear more than that the chemical action which would be set up in my soul by a false homage to a symbol behind which are massed twenty centuries of authority and veneration.

-- I want to see Rosie first, said Stephen.

-- Do you mean women?

Cranly turned also and said vehemently but without anger:

They parleyed in shouts across the still air about a game of billiards to be played in the Adelphi hotel. Stephen walked on alone and out into the quiet of Kildare Street opposite Maples hotel he stood to wait, patient again. The name of the hotel, a colourless polished wood, and its colourless front stung him like a glance of polite disdain. He stared angrily back at the softly lit drawing-room of the hotel in which he imagined the sleek lives of the patricians of Ireland housed in calm. They thought of army commissions and land agents: peasants greeted them along the roads in the country; they knew the names of certain French dishes and gave orders to jarvies in high-pitched provincial voices which pierced through their skin-tight accents.

-- And not to have any one person, Cranly said, who would be more than a friend, more even than the noblest and truest friend a man ever had.

Cranly smiled and said kindly:

They crossed the quadrangle together without speaking. The bird call from Sigfried whistled softly followed them from the steps of the porch. Cranly turned, and Dixon, who had whistled, called out:

-- Did you know that the Forsters are the kings of Belgium? he asked.

-- Warm weather for March, said Cranly. They have the windows open upstairs.

-- How many children had she?

-- That phrase you said now, he said, is from the new testament about suffer the children to come to me.

-- Youre a hypocrite, OKeeffe, he said. And Dixon is a smiler. By hell, I think thats a good literary expression.

-- Are you much afraid?

-- Examination papers, Glynn answered. I give them monthly examinations to see that they are profiting by my tuition.

-- Yes, Cranly said. It might be difficult for you to live here now. But is it that makes you go?

He ceased and, as Stephen did not reply, remained silent. Then, as if giving utterance to the process of his own thought, he said:

-- With guns and cattle, added Stephen, pointing to the titlepage of Cranlys book on which was printed Diseases of the Ox.

-- Tell us, Temple, OKeeffe said, how many quarts of porter have you in you?

-- Is there anything else you want to know? Stephen asked.

He had not even remembered rightly Nashs line. All the images it had awakened were false. His mind bred vermin. His thoughts were lice born of the sweat of sloth.

Temple moved away nimbly.

Glynn coughed and said gently, holding back with difficulty the nervous titter in his voice and moving his umbrella at every word:

-- I daresay I am, said Stephen, laughing also.

He snatched the ashplant roughly from Stephens hand and sprang down the steps: but Temple, hearing him move in pursuit, fled through the dusk like a wild creature, nimble and fleet-footed. Cranlys heavy boots were heard loudly charging across the quadrangle and then returning heavily, foiled and spurning the gravel at each step.

He broke into a loud long laugh.

And for ages men had gazed upward as he was gazing at birds in flight. The colonnade above him made him think vaguely of an ancient temple and the ashplant on which he leaned wearily of the curved stick of an augur. A sense of fear of the unknown moved in the heart of his weariness, a fear of symbols and portents, of the hawk-like man whose name he bore soaring out of his captivity on osier-woven wings, of Thoth, the god of writers, writing with a reed upon a tablet and bearing on his narrow ibis head the cusped moon.

-- Cranly, I told you I wanted to speak to you. Come away. Cranly looked at him for a few moments and asked:

-- Give us that stick here, Cranly said.

-- Where? Cranly asked.

Towards dawn he awoke. O what sweet music! His soul was all dewy wet. Over his limbs in sleep pale cool waves of light had passed. He lay still, as if his soul lay amid cool waters, conscious of faint sweet music. His mind was waking slowly to a tremulous morning knowledge, a morning inspiration. A spirit filled him, pure as the purest water, sweet as dew, moving as music. But how faintly it was inbreathed, how passionlessly, as if the seraphim themselves were breathing upon him! His soul was waking slowly, fearing to awake wholly. It was that windless hour of dawn when madness wakes and strange plants open to the light and the moth flies forth silently.

-You are, Glynn said in a firm tone. On that point Ireland is united.

His arm was taken in a strong grip and Cranlys voice said:

-- Our men retired in good order.

Are you not weary of ardent ways?

Are you not weary of ardent ways,

-- We never sold our faith!

Tell no more of enchanted days.

-- That idea never occurred to me, Stephen answered. But I am curious to know are you trying to make a convert of me or a pervert of yourself?

-- Of whom are you speaking? Stephen asked at length. Cranly did not answer.

-- Freedom! Cranly repeated. But you are not free enough yet to commit a sacrilege. Tell me would you rob?

-- Was your fatherCranly interrupted himself for an instant, and then said: I dont want to pry into your family affairs. But was your father what is called well-to-do? I mean, when you were growing up?

Are you not weary of ardent ways?

He moved the umbrella in indication and tittered again. Cranly, who was still chewing the fig, answered with loud movements of his jaws.

-- Made in Germany.

He walked on across the hall with Dixon, leaving Cranly to take leave elaborately of the dwarf.

Temple stood up and, pushing past Cranly, addressed Glynn:

Above the flame the smoke of praise

-- So then, Cranly went on musingly, you were born in the lap of luxury.